DEEP GIRL/I Kill

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I Kill

DEEP GIRL



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Gogo ichiji hitoribotchi no obentou
Mawari no tanoshisou na koe kokoro chigiresou
Tonari no ano ko wa kinou made wa tomodachi de
Kyou no asa kara wa shita uchi deshita

Kon no sukaato kara no sou shikato
"Itai no itai no ga tonde ikanai no"
Kodoku ga mune wo kirisaite
Ima sugu ni demo nakidashite shimaisou

Ohayou no koe toorisugi
Kooritsuku shisen sasari munasawagi
Line guruupu kidoku suruu
Ekishou no ue ni otosu
Namida no sutanpu

Busu
Kimoi
Kiero
Shine
Gakkou kurun ja nee yo gomi!

Taimurain afureru waruguchi no ato no
Shusseki bangou wa atashi no
Koshitsu toire kagi wo shime
Suki na ongaku de mimi wo fusaida

Utsumuki hiza wo kakaekonda sono toki
Ue kara furu baketsu no mizu
Daisuki datta uta ga noizu ni
Tobira wo keru oto ga yamanai

Warui tokoro attan nara
Hontou ayamaru yo
Dakara mou
Onegai
Yurushite
Dareka atashi no koe wo kiite

Tamerai kizu wo tobikoete
Aozora e tobikome
Kanaami wo koete
Zenbu nuritsubusou
Owari ni shiyou
Konna inochi nado

I kill tte kotoba tte kizu tsuite
Aa karugarushii
Sono shisen wo nido to mukenaide
Saa kooritsuita kimi to no jikan
Kimi to no wakare
Kimi to no deai
Kizamu yo

Gogo sanji taiiku owari koiishitsu
Youyaku kore de ie ni kaereru
Sono hazu ga doko ni mo nai seifuku
Tooku kara ano kotachi ga waratteru

Jaaji de shusseki suru hoomuruumu
Gomibako shizunde ita hikki yougu
Roofaa oyogu houkago no puuru
Kawaku made ie ni wa kaerenai

Kazoku ni wa shinpai kaketaku wa nai no
Itsumo oshigoto arigatou papa
Oishii gohan arigatou mama
Sore kara ippai gomen ne

Attakai koe yawarakai manazashi
Abitara tabun naite shimau kara
Konya mo heya kara derezu ni iru
Jibun de jibun wo dakishimete iru

Koko ni wa nigerareru michi ga nai
Dakara kattaa de atarashii chizu wo kaku
Kekkyoku koko de sae mo maigo da ne
Nemurezu asa ga kuru dake

Ijimerareru hou ni mo mondai ga aru?
Kuuki yomenai yatsu ga warui?
Sore nara kuuki ni dareka furigana futte yo
Soshitara baka na watashi demo yomeru ka na?

Ai kiru tte kotoba tte uragitte
Ima wa hitsuyou nai
Sono serifu wo hakidasanaide
Tada motometeta kibou no jikan
Ima motometeta
Teokure ni naru
Sono mae ni

Aa ima tobikonde

Saisho no chuucho koereba yoyuu to
Iitsukerareta haru uri no shoujo
Iwareta toori datta ne
"Suru mae ni saki ni okane choudai ne"
Koto ga owaru no wo zutto matteta
Atashi ga kishimu ningyou mitai ni
Mou doko ni mo kaerenai

Kyoufu
Zetsubou
Kodoku
Ji endo
Jishou
Isho
Sonzai ga toumei

Kyoufu
Zetsubou
Kodoku
Ji endo
Jishou
Isho
Sonzai ga toumei

Aa ikiru tte kotoba tte kizu tsuite
Aa karugarushii
Sono shisen wo nido to mukenaide
Saa kooritsuita kimi to no jikan
Kimi to no wakare
Kimi to no deai
Kizamu yo

Kyoufu
Zetsubou
Kodoku
Ji endo
Jishou
Isho
Sonzai ga toumei

Kyoufu
Zetsubou
Kodoku
Ji endo
Jishou
Isho
Sonzai ga toumei

1:00 PM, I'm eating my lunch all alone
The happy chatter surrounding me rips me apart
The girl next to me was my friend until yesterday
But this morning she clucked her tongue at me

Navy blue skirts that pretend I don't exist
"Pain, pain, doesn't fly away"
The loneliness rips my heart in two
I feel like I'm about to burst into tears

The calls of "good morning" pass me by
The piercing ice-cold stares feel foreboding
My Line messages are read, but no one responds
My tears fall down like a stamp
On the LCD screen

Ugly
Gross
Disappear
Die
Don't come back to school, trash!

My timeline's filled with trash talk
And the seat number at the end is mine
I lock the bathroom stall door
And fill my ears with my favorite music

As I hang my head and hug my knees
A bucket full of water rains down on me
That song I loved becomes nothing but noise
And the banging on the door won't stop

If I did something wrong
I sincerely apologize
So please
I'm begging you
Forgive me
Someone hear my voice

With hesitation, I leap over the wounds
And dive into the blue sky
Past the chainlink fence
I'll repaint everything
I'm going to put an end
To this life

The words "I kill" hurt
Ah, don't ever turn
That thoughtless gaze on me again
My time with you is frozen
When we broke up
When we first met
I'll etch it all into my heart

3:00 PM, in the changing room after gym
Now I can finally go home
But I can't find my uniform anywhere
I hear those girls laughing in the distance

I take my seat in homeroom still in my gym clothes
My pencil case is buried in the trash can
My loafers float in the pool
I can't go home until they dry

I don't want to worry my family
Thank you for all your hard work, Papa
Thank you for your delicious meals, Mama
And I'm so, so sorry for everything

Faced with their warm voices and gentle eyes
I'll probably start to cry
So I hole up in my room again tonight
And hug myself tight

There's no escape route here
So I draw a new map with a cutter
In the end, I'm still lost even here
Just waiting sleeplessly for morning

I must have done something to make them bully me?
It's my fault for not being able to read between the lines?
Then just spell it out
Would a dummy like me be able to pick up on it then?

The words "love cuts" are a betrayal
Don't spit that phrase at me
I don't need it right now
I just wanted a time for hope
I wanted it now
Before it was
Too late

Ah, now dive in

Once you get over the initial hesitation, it's easy
Is what the girl who's selling herself was always told
Turns out it's true
"Give me the money before we do it"
I just waited for it to be over
Like some sort of creaking doll
There's nowhere I can go home to anymore

Fear
Despair
Loneliness
The end
Self harm
Suicide note
I am invisible

Fear
Despair
Loneliness
The end
Self harm
Suicide note
I am invisible

The words "Ah, I'll live" hurt
Ah, don't ever turn
That thoughtless gaze on me again
My time with you is frozen
When we broke up
When we first met
I'll etch it all into my heart

Fear
Despair
Loneliness
The end
Self harm
Suicide note
I am invisible

Fear
Despair
Loneliness
The end
Self harm
Suicide note
I am invisible